Not getting darker, but not bleeding

So today is supposed to be the latest day possible my period would start. After today, I would officially be "late". Strangely, the tests are not getting any darker, but I did switch to a different brand. 

Regardless, the lines aren't darkening, but I haven't started bleeding. 

So  we will see how the rest of the week goes. I will keep you updated

Today I ordered a peppermint white mocha frappucino as a my "Friday treat" (tomorrow I am off work). But halfway through I realized it's probably time to cut back on caffeine... and probably do the recommended paleo/less carb eating that I read would help women with food allergies while pregnant.

Send every prayer you can that this baby is sticky, that it has burrowed itself in and there is no hematoma growing, and that we have a VERY boring nine months ahead of us. 

I'm also going to share a text I got from my husband, because it so sums up how we feel after our last loss: 

                I was looking at our stuff. and some of it I love. Like, I'd hate losing my Magic                         cards, or our Corelle plates or our cuddle pillows. 

                But fuck. All I want is our new house, and you, and the baby turning you into a                       house. I'd happily sleep on the floor in a nest we own forever. 

We have all the love. I've never felt so much love before in my life. And while it was hard getting to this point, and this much love seems to be born out of so much grief and loss, I feel it. I feel that the more positive we are, the better life is.

Life is good. Not always happy. But good.

-Emily