Happy Monday, everybody.
What a weekend. I definitely did way too much, and now I don't feel like it was at all relaxing, so I am more tired now than I was on Friday. And by Friday night my brain was a pile of gray mush.
Saturday we did a big shop, and I helped my mom look for a new gym. By helped, I mean I went with her to one gym and we did a short tour. After that, we came home, I took a 2 hour nap, went to bed at 8, and woke up at 7 the next morning. Sunday, I did laundry, and then went to a Superbowl party after taking a 15 minute walk.
Well, as great as the walk felt, I am not doing that again for a while. Immediately following I had more green discharge. And this morning even more. It looks like it could possibly be (TMI) mucus plug? Or an infection? But it's definitely not normal, and I didn't have it last time. I am going to see if my OB will do a test on it, or get her feedback. It's not something I enjoy dealing with. BUT the fact that it is green and not blood is, I think, better.
So yea, back on that modified bedrest. Every time I feel better, I overdo it. So no more of that. This upcoming weekend will be spent laying around, maybe putting laundry away, and trying to heal. That being said, I have been looking for ward to this week for 11 weeks now. This is the big one! We get our NT ultrasound that tests for downs. We get the harmony test done to tests for genetic mutations, and we find out gender. At the US, we will also get a look at that SCH again and see what is happening. I think by Friday of this week we will know a whole lot more about what is going on, which will help us kind of chart out what might happen.
So now I just have to get through the week until Wednesday. I am super impatient, and not gonna lie, trying to focus on work is proving to be nearly impossible. Especially because I keep getting people wanting really crazy things that I've never seen before, which requires like ten additional steps and often times, I still don't have answers.
My irritation is pretty much through the roof, and I can't do anything to fix it except meditate and avoid contact with humans.
I have also noticed that loud noises are the bane of my existence. Particularly voices. I am a wretched human being right now, and I don't even care!
*EMPOWERMENT* Just have to be careful I don't say something I regret.
I also found an awesome lady on one of my boards who is inspiring me to eat better and *try* to workout. She is in a similar situation, and I feel less alone dealing with what I've been through. It's okay to be not okay. And it's also okay to be okay. And knowing I'm not along is something that helps me a lot. My husband starts his spring semester today, so he is going to be pretty preoccupied. Now that I've set up space for my desk I think I'll be able to start doing more digital projects and help pass the time. Passing the time is my goal right now.
With the hope that Wednesday gets here relatively painlessly.
Come on, Bazby. We can do this. Grow grow grow, healthy and strong.
-Emily
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